live life to the max.

K2 Cyber Games

2009-01-21T11:51:00.005+08:00

Introducing:

tadaa~! alex the lion uhh i mean Alex the "Balok"!
no la he was just fooling with the spectator projector where im supposed to sit haha

all of sudd our BHEP play dirty lo, wat perpaduan karnival, dunwan ppl come campaign say la. then senior duno wat activity to put, jiu hmm lets DOTA CS on BIG SCREEN! then i help organize lo find ppl go play bring own laptop, set up wiring, router etc. we got a very powerful router from Kocak dam.. 12 laptop wireless still zero lag. fuyo.. and that was last sunday night aka 18 jan.

where can you see something like this elsewhere? LAN PARTAAYY! WCG!! SMM DOTA!!

the big screenie..

my teammates in action! i mean for k10 punya Putra Cyber Games aka PCG.

Tekak, T-Back and Kocak in CS action!

pity we are allowed to play until 11.15pm. and this activity is actually under college activity lol
and dam 2nd day i got test and have to rush finish a lab report. got no time to help clean up place. so i run early and finish my lab report.

how nice if every week we get to train like that in such a gaming environment xD

2008-12-25T21:30:00.000+08:00

still looking for the way in life.

2008-12-18T00:34:00.004+08:00

Courage is what it takes to stand up and speak; courage is also what it takes to sit down and listen.”

“If you are going through hell, keep going.”

Quotes by Winston Churchill

muney! luckily this is short xD

2008-12-13T10:06:00.003+08:00

5 things found in my bag.
- for now? empty xD reach home then throw everything out d

5 things found in my wallet.
- IC, baby photo, me and baby together photo, driving license, J card

5 things found in my room.
- laptop, table, dust, books, DVD-game

5 things i've always wanted to do.
- learn guitar, win a gaming tournament, earn alot of money, 孝顺父母， ice skating

List out the 4 presents u wish for.
- O.o no birthday wish apa present?

The person who tagged u was
- money guy.. muney..

The 5 impressions of the most memorable thing she/he has done to you
- most memorable? wah scary xD he very hardworking during finals

If she/he becomes your lover,
- wah faint liao..

If she/he becomes your enemy,
- wah where can..

My taggee's~
life is short, live life to the max!

a bad deal

2008-12-10T18:43:00.004+08:00

so i decided to trade my 99% scratchless digimon for this guy's well, see the pic la..
he literally SCRATCH the paint of the body using metal ruler or what.. check the pic above. when i get it i straight potong stim.. straight no mood d..

the white color? he liquid paper there.. i mean WTF?! liquid there for wat?

the white color is oso liquid.. he is crazy.. and the skin all been scratch so that the paint come off half and the other half is thick thin like surface of the moon.. my fault cause never see very clearly when he send me the pics.. well then i learned my lesson, no more bad deals from internet..

if anyone got digimon wanna let go, drop me a message in the chat box =)

ohya forgot, he promised new battery but when i open, the batteries already rusted, dam him.

November 28th, December 1s

2008-12-05T11:54:00.017+08:00

ok i went penang without much hope.

Travel travel travel. reach liao. yay. i guess. haha feel just like klang, except some part with extra(i mean many) old english/european style buildings.

Spoiler: if you went penang before maybe you know all the stuff below d.

we went Jetties. ya you heard it right. Jetty(plural) these jetty are houses on sea like pulau ketam where people build the foundation on sea then build house lo. i think penang government wanted to make all the jetty a tourist attraction, so they decided to put something like this:

(click to zoom) it says LEE jetty, and 姓李桥(surname Lee's bridge direct translation for those who cant read mandarin xD) and ya, all the bridge/jetty/wateveryoucalledit is stayed by people with same surname, kinda like association lidat, but like chinese say, help ka ki lang(hokkien), or english, help our kins etc. got LEE jetty, CHEW jetty, TAN jetty, and one very geng, Mixed Surname jetty haha but i dint took tat pic ><

on top of entrance to chew jetty.

entrance to CHEW Jetty, introduction, etc.

and this is(both above) from the end of the jetty/bridge view (ya i noe no different from pulau ketam

this is the whole CHEW jetty's view, from the end, 2 rows of sea-houses lidat lo. and thats lady in red(ah bi xP)

moral(xD): i never thought penang still keeps these kind of shore fishing village kind of houses. it show the early settlement of chinese migration from China and i agree, not a bad education at all for an urban child like me. at least we noe, where our ancestors came from, settled down in the early days.

next, 银行街(Bank street direct translation) is wat i'm introduced to, no english name provided to me so i oso tak tahu xD

manage to took only 1 pic cuz in rush to other places. whole street oso banks(CIMB, RHB, cant rmbr d) and all oso old european/english/itaktahuwatcountry style buildings.

Moral: Penang is full of old historical buildings, which i dare to say its even more than those in Malacca. Penang is underpromoted, compare to Malacca. nobody noe penang as historical site/world heritage/chinese early settlement but only noe penang as food haven. visit Penang, you will change your concept de.. visit all the world heritage sites/buildings/endangered craft(later got preview)

you noe MGS? no no not monkey girl school. Malaysian-German Society?

i never know society like this existed >.<

MGS building, rented from Penang gov if not mistaken, classical building.

ohya i went there for an art exhibition by Mr. Sim, artist, husband to my mum's fren, where we stayed her house for 2 days 1 nite, thanks mum's fren! duno how to spell her name in english..

then we were treated with this:

by an ang mo which we(whole family) happily accepted, thinking shuld be sweet and nice, until 1 sip, OMG XX% alcohol.. dad straight kenot drink(he cant reli take alcohol) and i try to swallow the drink argh.. so strong alcohol taste this must be wine punya cocktail..

which and then, RM8 for each glass OMG again i thought it was free so she offered us wah.. pengsan d.

german style snacks etc, with sushi haha cuz got few japanese brought sushi.

2nd day,

notice 2 chinese temple style buildings? those are entrance to hidden temple(not so hidden)/buildings of kongsi-s/so called 'company' etc. tak tahu apa? kongsi gelap noe? hmm.. ya underground association lidat lo.. actually we should feel something about it(explanation later). go thru the front door(which is the size of a normal old fashioned shoplot), but its empty xD walk all the way back in the hidden courtyard behind, and you'll see this:

or this:

old fashioned/classical chinese style temple style bla building. as you all noe, many temples all use as disguise to hide the real identity which are kongsi-s.

it writes 福建公司 where direct translation would lead to hokkien company(kongsi), meaning the kongsi belongs to hokkien etc. there are ALOT ALOT of temple(kongsi-s) in penang. dam we walk and walk and walk and everywhere are those type of temple kongsi. same pattern, one big door outside, walk pass long empty shop(c below pic click to zoom, c the lane leading inside at 9 o'clock position of pic) into hidden courtyard(fields, some stone floor) then big big building like above.

ok history: all the kongsi-s are started by our ancestors, those who migrated from China, they settle down, but tat time new environment, harsh time, to protect themselves, they have to get organized and unite, and so, kongsi-s are born. so we cant reli blame them for going underground or what, under oppression maybe by westerners(we all noe how western see us as inferior until now) they have to protect themselves.

seriously have to look at this, click to zoom.

check the decoration at the ceiling of one of the kongsi, my mum's fren notice us with that and see, that tiny white ang mo in green shirt? thats wat our ancestors do to let out their anger on westerners. since ang mo oppress them in daily life, they build buildings, then decorate that ang mo there, to show that ang mo are workers(or duno wat) which carry their house for them lidat. good way to show their bo song towards ang mo haha *salute ancestors*

Maitriya Buddha, is he a she-male? dam her(his) breast is big.. its a pic on wall of a kongsi building.. i see time straight walau then sis-es all oso say..

and then i realized its on the roof of the kongsi >.<

then on we walked, saw this mosque which name is Masjid Kapitan Keling, which is a mosque for Indian (Muslim?) im not sure. and then the word keling is like kuli(workers or something) with negative insulting meaning lidat de.. and thats where keling kia(hokkien) come from haha its how our ah ma ah gong call indian if they are hokkien..

more sightseeing, notice 1st floor which is dam thin and lik no floor lidat? haha duno who build de building.

(sightseeing)

introducing the joss stick maker~ Mr Lee!

if you ask wat is joss stick, c pic above and below

stick duno wat is joss stick? 知道香是什么吗？烧香拜佛？the stuff you burn to pray then put in a pot lidat ah(buddhist or taoist) why above joss looks so strange? cuz those are purposely made lidat! handmade joss making craft is endangered. no younger people would take up the craft and even current joss stick maker like Mr Lee faces alot of competition from much cheaper and lower quality, mass produced joss from factory machine.

when we reach his shop at i duno wat street, we saw his friendly and happi face. then dad wanna see more of his product(joss with different shape n sizes) he very gan jiong take so many out, not gan jiong to sell us, but to let us noe, the craft of joss stick making, and the product. when foreign tourist come visit his shop, he always say this: no muy muy(buy buy) no poblem you happy i happy haha we all straight laughed..

lastly full family pic with Mr Lee the joss stick maker! notice his friendly smile and the necklace he wearing haha got write his name and says joss stick maker..

and dam, this is 2nd day d i continue this post, dam long cant finish.. yesterday 2pm til now 10.30am 2nd day, and stil going on.

its time for batu feringghi! although i dun swim >.<

no, really! these are sea-coconuts on the beach. whole LOOOOOONG row of sea coconut ready to take home.

*psst* those are jellyfishes egg xD

check the size. it change shape you noe? when put on hand it will slowly turn into round round shape, if put on beach back it changes back to long shape like on my hand. if you look hard enough you'll notice tiny orange dots inside the egg, i guess is the baby jellyfish? how they get on beach? they float in water float ah float then got wave hualala push them onto beach d lo. how they hatch ah.. i duno eh haha how i noe ah(all these stuff)? a girl told us when we was looking closely at the eggs. girl(we duno de): i go ask the lifeguard hotel there d, all these are jellyfish eggs, wahhh.. good can play d xD and dun touch too much will itchy itchy.

wah last stop d phew~ deep breath..

kek lok si! ok nothing much interesting here, except the giant statue

being build now i think its kuan yin, and this best d,

how many times in your life you get to c, half headed buddha?

and sumore brainless?

PS: seriously, no offence to any buddhist, watever-ist you are that believes in Gautama Buddha. im just looking for hilarious material, and this(half head buddha statue) kinda throw face for kek lok si if you ask me.

wah finish d. at last. wah. wahh.. wahhh.. at last i reli finish d. i think. hope dint left out anything.

Enjoy your stay here!

FLOOD!

2008-12-05T11:38:00.002+08:00

November 27th. Rain. ok i mean flood. look below:

my car is stucked in flood. opps. hav to stop to take pic, no i mean wait flood over..

air sudah masuk rumah!

my feet is swimming. seriously, its deeper than on pic.

junction full of water.

dam that nite was a gao lat. my hse first time water flooded in, then around my house area got few area the waters are nearly knee deep and car couldnt pass thru. dam.. many car just stop beside the road.. then at last reach home at 12.10 realizing my house got ALOT of cockroaches coming in to avoid the water, KILLING SPREE! but no pics hehe i hate cockroaches.

novmeber 21st

2008-11-21T12:16:00.002+08:00

like normal ke xin appointment, me mum xin and this time extra li tong went to hospital KL for xin's appointment checkup. take blood check urine etc. ok then we were the last one to be checked (around 5pm) the clinic oso want close d haha then we go back lo..

on the way back mum missed a turn to take the usual way to NKVE(New Klang Valley Expressway, aka Plusway aka the Bukit Raja highway) and come home then continue down until damansara. then all of sudden on Sprint highway Damansara plaza tol, my mum's car clutch got problem. it get really loose like pressing nothing and couldnt get into a gear. at first sometimes can and sometimes kenot work the clutch. til 50 metres from the tol, the clutch fails. hazard light is on, car is middle of the road, luckily its jam all over the place so we dont face 'racing' cars coming on our back.

then mum went to the tol to find anyone to call the Peronda of the highway, to assist us, after we found out that mum's car is due to small problem where clutch fluid dried up or leaked away d. thenn the ppl say call d ask us wait 10 mins.

*after waiting 25 mins* mum went back to the plaza tol again, the person say: sudah telepon la~ mungkin stuck in jam kot.. ok mum come back car wait. *after 45 mins* i go to the plaza tol, again, mana itu (WTF) peronda? they stuck in jam la.. (stuck ur head stuck, ur managament stuck in butt) then i politely point to the you know the building besides the plaza tol? sana ada minyak clutch? saya hanya perlukan minyak clutch then ok d. then she answer: the problem is, saya sudah called peronda tapi they stuck in jam.. (who cares whether they stuck in jam or not i just feel they wont come la you idiot answer my question la) then i say again: saya hanya perlukan minyak clutch, mana-mana ada tak? takde la situ takde. then tol sini ada tak? takde pun..

then sudd, sana sana pointing kenot see where, ada shell, jalan kaki can reach? boleh boleh then i walked. and walked. and walked. with ela(umbrella) under the rain, and walked, and felt like a hero, with everyone watching i walking among the cars on the highway (lol xD) and reach shell and bought clutch fluid, milo, polo, and i forgot to buy drinking water pula whole car is low on water d..

then go back, car which is stuck middle of the road, put fluid, then eh ok d. then go. then whoever saw me near damansara sprint highway tol there walking, its me! xD and i should have took some pics, but hand wet and oily dunwana hold my fone.

and the moral of the story: 1)Sprint highway management SUCKS. 2) prepare a spare bottle of brake/clutch fluid(they uses the same fluid) in car, nvr know when you might nid one. 3)lets have another adventure xD ok just joking.

i had a talk with bi

2008-11-21T11:46:00.005+08:00

for sometime i find myself keep avoid playing warcraft III for unknown reasons. everytime i sit down, see the desktop, wah so many game to choose.. my heart keep wanting and at the same time dunwan to play wc3. i would rather how oso double click on any other game other than my favourite wc3, and i dunno why. i feel so wan to play but i just dunwan to play =S its dam confusing..

then after a talk with my baby.. she figured out that i could be stuck at this level too long without improvement that makes my heart so wan and dunwan play wc3 xD so i guess i found my problem but yet to solve it. gonna play some wc3 from now on, with different purpose of playing the game. i always wanted to win, where i stress myself to win.. hmm. now i would play wc3 for fun and as my hobby and not winning, even losing can be nice? xD

ps: for those who tak tahu the game warcraft 3, its one of the most popular RTS(real time strategy) game where you contruct bases, build armies and crush ur opponent style competitive game in the world, with major gaming leagues covering this game like World Cyber Games(www.wcg.com) Electronic Sports League WC3L (www.wc3l.com) Electronic Sports World Cup (www.eswc.com) and some others korean gaming league which i never heard of.
Hot enough? bring the game on! GG GL HF! (for non-gamers: it means Good Game, Good Luck, Have Fun)

November!

2008-11-13T22:15:00.006+08:00

November! my favourite month: partly becuz it means holiday, plus its my birthday, plus november just sounds so dam nice xD

november 4th:

me and funny roommate haha in bowling First World Plaze

first world punya backdoor

classical double decker in Genting o.O

Corkscrew! i mean i on corkscrew hehe the best roller coaster(i sit b4 la) but i only sit coaster in malaysia b4 nia so dun expect my benchmark to be high hehe

our november baby de cake.. wah our coursemate sudd off light then take cake in i sumore thought wat happened.. then sudd sing song d haha november baby: me, roommate, yong sheng, no ppl d i think xD if i reli missed out someone jiu reli paiseh la hehe

xin ling curi took my pic when i sniper-ing.. nice game but the stupid gun so dam low i so tall so xing ku..

how come everytime my coursemate everyone took pic i oso not there de ah.. dam.. tat time i still stuck in toilet >< then come out: paiseh la xiu yang we took pic finish d.. even my roommate not my course oso in the pic =S Genting trip! with coursemate.. took not many photo hmm mainly bcuz i dun reli rmbr to take photo everytime xD ok back from genting trip went pulau ketam punya Pesta Ang Pau punya training camp.

my pulau ketam keychain xD

the only outdoor pic i managed to take during our walk around the island

my group with the bride and bridegroom in newspaper xD

my coursemate cincau aka yong sheng! haha his in bikini.. everyone must c this..

coming back from pulau ketam.. with 3 new frens and one nicholas from high skol and kwang hua =D

ok the purpose of this post is to post pics only i guess xD

Do we know where we are heading to in Life?

2008-11-09T01:01:00.001+08:00

Happiness comes from within your heart, not from your surroundings.

A boat docked in a tiny Mexican village. An American tourist complimented the
Mexican fisherman on the quality of his fish and asked "How long it took him to catch them?"
"Not very long," answered the Mexican.

"But then, why didn't you stay out longer and catch more?" asked the American.
The Mexican explained that his small catch was
sufficient to meet his needs and those of his family.

The American asked, "But what do you do with the rest of your time?"
"I sleep late, fish a little, play with my children, and take a siesta with my wife.
In the evenings, I go into the village to see my friends,
play the guitar, and sing a few songs... I have a full life."

The American interrupted, "I have an MBA from Harvard, and I can help you!

You should start by fishing longer every day. You can then sell the extra fish you catch.
With the extra revenue, you can buy a bigger boat."
"And after that?" asked the Mexican.

"With the extra money the larger boat will bring,
you can buy a second one and a third one and so on
until you have an entire fleet of trawlers.
Instead of selling your fish to a middle man,
you can then negotiate directly with the processing plants and
Maybe even open your own plant. You can then leave this little village and
move to Mexico City , Los Angeles , or even New York City ! From there you
can direct your huge new enterprise."

"How long would that take?" asked the Mexican?
"Twenty, perhaps twenty-five years," replied the American.

"And after that?"
Well, my friend, that's when it gets really interesting, " answered the American, laughing.

"When your business gets really big, you can cart Selling stocks and make millions!"
"Millions? Really? And after that?" said the Mexican.

"After that you'll be able to retire, live in a tiny village near the coast,
sleep late, play with your children, catch a few fish, take a siesta with
your wife and spend your evenings doing what you like and enjoying your friends."

"With all due respect sir, but that's exactly what I am doing now.

So what's the point wasting twenty-five years?" asked the Mexican.

And the moral is: Know where you're going in life...you may already be there.

2008-10-28T09:20:00.003+08:00

THE SELF
[01] Name: Xiu Yang
[02] Nickname: Xiu Yang, ah yang, yang yang, mehhh~
[03] Married: Single but x available.. attached d le..
[04] Zodiac Sign: Scorpio
[05] Gender: male
[06] Age: 20
[07] High School: SMJK Kwang Hua, High School Klang
[08] University: UPM Serdang, Selangor
[09] Height: 177cm
[10] Weight: 70kg
[11] Do you like yourself: sure la..
[12] Piercings: 4 on my baby
[13] Right or left: both ear
[14] Are you a freak: 50% clean freak
[15] Hair: black and stil black
[16] Skin: fair for a guy
[17] Allergic: none
[18] What are you doing now: tagged by baby, in library getting fast connection xD
[19] What will you do 1 hour later: stil in library, might webcam-ing with baby
[20] What will you do 10 years later: earn money, with qin qin

THE FAMILY
[21] Live with mother/father/parents: Parents
[22] Siblings(included you): 4
[23] Eldest: my sister's brother(me!)
[24] Youngest: Sister lo
[25] Love/hate your family: definitely love la..

THE LOVE
[26] You found your another half: yeah
[27] If yes, who is he/she: my baby la
[28] If no, who you want he/she to be: -
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: 4th
[30] Ever woo boy/girl(0-100000): umm got lo..
[31] Anyone woo you before(0-100000): no ppl woo me TT
[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: NEVER
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: -
[34] Ever argue with your other half: where got couple no argue de..
[35] You with your other half since: 1 year 2 month 14 days ago
[36] Are you straight/Lesbo: 180 degree straight
[37] Reasons you love your other half: cause she is my baby lo
[38] You and your other half in which stage: umm wan marry stage? xD
[39] You woo-ed her/him or he/she woo you: yaya we woo-ed each other~
[40] Ever think of marry he/she: yea..

THE FRIENDS
[41] Your first best friend: primary skol best fren: tan wei long i think if not mistaken
[42] Your first enemy: lik takde..
[43] The friend you love the most: my gf?
[44] The enemy you hate the most(1only): takde la..
[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: girlfren!
[46] Your most handsome guy friend: hmm nvr reli go c who is handsome who is not..
[47] The kind of girl/woman you hate the most: hmm duno ehh..
[48] The kind of boy/man you hate the most: aggressive..
[49] You fall in love with your close friend before: let me think.. ya i think
[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: Nope
[51] If your friend backstab you: bo song, then insult him her publicaly
[52] If your friend betray you: f him
[53] If your friend woo your lover: whack him
[54] If your friend fall in love with you: i got baby lu..
[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: i stil got baby lu..

THE STUDIES
[56] Are you a good student: average lidat..
[57] You always done your homeworks/assignments: sometimes lo..
[58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: jason lo..
[59] Always late to school/college: Seldom
[60] Your class: so sleep..
[61] You love your seniors: not reli..
[62] Senior who you love the most: takde..
[63] Your classmates good/bad: all oso not bad de..
[64] Excellent result classmate: got some quite geng de..
[65] Laziest classmate: me!

THE PEOPLE
[66] Smart people: got alot
[67] Stupid people: got some around
[68] Good looking people: who are leng zai leng lui lo
[69] Ugly people: lousy attitude jiu ugly d..
[70] Funny people: dun reli und wat this question is
[71] Cute people: uhh my lil sister?
[72] Bad people: criminal?
[73] Honest people: me me im honest!
[74] Acting people: actor? angelina jolie? tom cruise?
[75] You are what kind of people: happy leng zai hubby

THE PREFER
[76] Lip or eyes: lips
[77] Hugs or kisses: hug first then kiss la
[78] Shorter or taller: Taller
[79] Hesitant or spontaneous: Spontaneous
[80] Nice stomach or nice arms: Arms
[81] Listener or talker: Talker
[82] Romantic or rich: Romantic
[83] Good wife or Good mother: Both.

THE FUTURE
[84] Age to get marry: 28?
[85] Numbers of kid(s): 2-3
[86] Career: anything can earn money using my brain
[87] Salary: is called profit not salary
[88] Retirement age: tak tahu
[89] Properties value: fnot much.. important is not property value
[90] Wishes: protect our earth, earth not sick anymore. love my baby more..

THE TAGS
[91] baby (got jor)
[91] ming wei
[91] xin ling
[91] vee mae?
[91] who else har?

buying punya impulse

2008-10-12T12:27:00.001+08:00

i realized that my impulse to buy stuff is crazy. controlling it very hard but it just seems to come back whatever im doing. any serious useful advice to stop impulse buy? i've tried distract myself but the impulse seems to come back whenever the distraction stops. argh. money is for investment not spend on impulses eh.

long time ago coursenight

2008-10-03T22:19:00.003+08:00

someone special wanna see pics i took =D here you go bi..

me and xin ling..

me and mei fang..

all biochems. when i realize they taking pic i run over but took liao =( every biochem but no me..

take care of our mother(Earth)

2008-10-01T22:02:00.002+08:00

ya. our Earth. all of sudden i got an idea and urge to express my thinking towards everyone.

its an eyesore to see people spitting on the streets, throwing rubbish outta car window, etc. dam. their car so big cant even keep a small rubbish until the next time they see a rubbish bin ar? idiots. taking plastic bag when they got an option not to. they take plastic bag, then reach home straight throw tat plastic bag. just very tiny small part of convenience and you are polluting our mother with another extra plastic bag. ya you would say its just you right? but everyone is thinking like you thats why the earth is getting sick.

change you thought and you change the world. with small actions by everyone, we can influence people around us. dont you feel global warming is getting seriously shitty? i noe. the BIG DAMN america wont sign Kyoto treaty, but so? is that a reason not to do your part as a human being?

do everything you can. even small things like not taking plastic bags when buying cut fruit is a good start. Reduce and reuse. love your family. love your spouse. love yourself. love our Earth. reduce plastic bags whenever can.

Currently

2008-09-27T13:41:00.002+08:00

currently..
im missing you thinking of you right now. i noe it sounds too sticky for you never reply me few hours than i like this d. just that, i need you..

Choir - Family Day

2008-09-21T03:47:00.002+08:00

this post should be the earliest but i oso blog til blur d so many things de blog post together

Jun4 Xiong2! whose gf keep on calling him de xD
bi this guy lo~
check out my uniform xD

alligator choir team guys

choir team plus fasion show designer(in orange)

me and 'dan chun' roommate

full choir team with family 'papa and mama' and seniors

Mayonisseee jar and 2 cups of coffee come come read

2008-09-21T03:39:00.002+08:00

When things in your lives seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee.
A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full.

The students responded with a unanimous "yes." The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.
"Now," said the professor as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things --

your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favourite passions--and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car. The sand is everything else--the small stuff. "If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you.

"Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your spouse out to dinner.

Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first--the things that really matter. Set your priorities.

and dont like me no time do assignment still blogging.(cuz now suddenly can blog eh if not dam line sucks big time)

2008-09-21T03:17:00.002+08:00

this is the place where i wash clothes.
(dedicated to someone special)
tat day washing after replying you then sudd think can take let you c haha

bi you know is you xD

2008-09-21T03:01:00.004+08:00

this should be cantum last post go ktdi tanglung walk walk de.

the court where i always play basketball until:

macam ini punya..

its the girls turn to kena lecturer call out demo d =D cantum previous post oso

this is RM4 in UPM. ugly price for average food.

13 September: 20 people in a room for wat? steamboat!
da pin lou omg i speaking cantonese xD

eat!!

1st bowl aiya so little

3rd bowl aiya more little..

ribena + ice = drink liao no water ma..

15 september. nite market in sri serdang(gua duno the place name) dinner!

peanut tang yuan

black sesame tang yuan

which 4 in total and cost me RM3.50 (#$&#$%!*@#)

2008-09-16T20:43:00.005+08:00

for the hundredth times i've been trying to upload alot of pics and blog this ma de post.. spent alot of energy on this one dam post and still couldnt post it. dam..

me and coursemate kena call out go front show how is duno wattheheck is wat d.. i just woke up eh mayb lecturer saw me sleeping only ask us all guys come out haha

biochem coursemates! we went KTDI after steamboat on last satuday 13th Sept to support our coursemate's mid autumn festival de function. went quite late but for support show face xia lo =D

things below arent in order and cincai put nia cuz at last can upload my pics. dam you uspot.

welcome to WCG!

LOser's bracket of my Reyka(me la)!

i was here before i got pwned by M1 member.(M1 is Malaysian gaming clan lidat)

entrance of WCG 2008 Malaysia.

Colours of Unity(fashion show) c my ghostly gothic eye

I'm alligator-ian! Overall CHAMPION! our prize pool.

BLOG!!

2008-09-13T03:21:00.006+08:00

for ages, uspot(wireless service in UPM) has been blocking google and all its related sites including blogspot. now only can login and blog arghh! i got so many thing to blog and now is 3.20am wah wah.. just kena kolamkan and fu hoo~ everyone kena kolam til so high haha now half ppl dunwan sleep half more sleeping d.. alright from last last time since i wanna blog: ............ dam.. waiting photo to be upload oso slow like this.. so late d eh.. who stealing the line with me la.. more ............... all photo should be up in this typing box d but nothing showed up.. still waiting~

*after 15 minutes*

wah again no pictures showed up after uploading.. guess i have to postpone those pics again.. faint liao..

2008-08-21T02:50:00.002+08:00

this afternoon was very pressured. felt like cant breathe lidat.. sumore stuck in stupid TITAS lousy brainwash course. idiotic watheck everything oso must kaitkan with the religion zz i got NO religion, and i dont do crime. thats it. whoever think im bad person may you burn in hell =) TITAS assignment, 2 lab reports, physic tutorial, camp, family meeting, catwalk, choir, all sorts of shits.. all burying me.. i just cant manage all nicely without sacrificing something arghhh.. i never got enough sleep, alw with panda eye, 80% working brain, 120% heart taking care of someone.. wahhhhh i very very zzzz ahh.. Sept 2nd physic test again.. idiot la keep test.. stupid TITAS must have book de source as rujukan? idiot.. find book in library is like idiot. internet so easy kenot. tomoro go buy things this tat cut hair argh after that must finish lab report then duno wat shit d la.. lecture ah lecture, if you so like ur religion, go ahead, love it. but dont force everyone to like oso la.. i just dun give a shit about being in a religion. i dunwan something to tell me what should and what i shouldn't do. i do things follow my heart and moral value, and family opinion, and for mother Earth.

13th August

2008-08-14T00:07:00.002+08:00

let me count.. 1 and a half month here in K2. honestly, its hectic. plain hectic. i flunked almost all my test, and i wonder how i got time to blog sumore.. feel like theres endless thing to do.. just wont finish arghh.. tutorial, lab reports, block activity, K2 er4 hua2 activity, die. arghh tired.. everyday oso not enough sleep weekend i can sleep whole day.. now typing oso brain functiong at 60%. duno how senior manage de.. sleep 4 hours average per day 0.0 watheck? if me i already fall sick.. he sumore getting first class results ma de.. xiao de.. lousy internet here stil sucky + slow.

recently got impulse buy wanna get Diamondback 3G. oh shit kenot fall into trap! migu lo xD jk la migu.. tomoro going midvalley get my Gamer's Tag OMG OMG my dream coming true! WCG Malaysia Team MvG is here!

i honestly duno how to study here. LOST. bought da book read everything then walau read so much d still duno how to do.. c notes argh dam la notes more lousy.

first test:
Cell Bio: B lidat
Biomol: D lidat
Physics: D/E
organic boom : D
Titas: to be test-ed

oh yay there goes my first test..
*SCREAMS MY HEART OUT*

4th week in UPM

2008-07-30T14:45:00.002+08:00

dam.. my life is extremely hectic here.. even eat oso have to see time run here run there block stuff college stuff arghh.. test is next week which made up 30% of our final score 0.0 dam i langsung havent started studying anything.. to be honest i dunno wat to study eh.. gila shit.. i wanna good results eh damit.. k la go study d.

and lastly.. bi.. i miss you.

Yesterday, today.

2008-06-25T20:07:00.007+08:00

alright this isn't today nor yesterday. this was sometime ago i forgot to put. mum ordered this fruit salad at Kenny Rogers. and know how much this is? freaking RM6 for so little. small lesson: no fruit salad or any ala carte side dishes in Kenny Rogers.

yesterday! farewell day for us.. i'll miss you alot. i learned to eat another food from mi qin qin again.. apple cheese! omg thats so sweet~

caramel machiato! eh izzit har? i not sure the name d xD this is surprisingly nice, taste ngam ngam for me especially the coffee.. um umm~ RM8 and of course, its sharED among 2 xing fu lover, treasure every moment n_n live.laugh.love

and of course, the coffee and cake make my baby sick jor =( eh dun forget bout not drinking water whole day.. aiyor~

today i went BSN Bukit Tinggi to buy pin for PTPTN. check that out. tarif 'spesial' oh yeahh~ its so spe-sial thats it honestly make me think that BSN sucks, plus with the attitude of the worker, cha la BSN. and that that uang. uang. uang?!! uang apa?! wang la mangkuk.

Periode(wow the guy's got 'Latine') sampai 31 Julie.. julie julie julie ogoss oktobar oktobar.

layanan yang berparticipate =D i love your BM BSN guy =)

n ya i got think maybe those for bahasa Indon? hmm for foreign workers cause its a kemuddahanan for sending money to Indonesia. but Indon doesnt seems so alike to BM la. this BSN guy must be from Pakistan.

saturday, yesterday, eh no is lagi yesterday

2008-06-23T13:02:00.003+08:00

Razer Krait! at last i gave it to joe.. and now all that is left is my lousy BenQ 400 DPI mouse.. dam its so slow cant shoot people xD but not gonna play game much anymore also.. all those uni thing havent gao dim, now lousy UPM site sumore down.. idiot de.. how we gonna print those forms: med checkup forms, ini form itu maklumat pelajar form watever shit and go certify and body checkup? its monday already.. plus surat tawaran aiyaa dunid say de la UPM gonna be the slowest. cacat website cacat UPM workmanship.

yesterday went parkson with my baby.. and holy.. baby there no McD so we gonna have McD everytime baby come back! (sot meh i dunwan xD) baby bought jor like 3 trackbottoms and aiyo i still duno wat is pantyliner.. not wei shen mian then not panty then is wat le? hmm

athol there's a HUGGEE rat on the floor im standing on the sofa!

spending time with baby is the best feeling.. suddenly realize, McD so expensive ge ToT

my U

2008-06-18T21:17:00.002+08:00

UPM. expected. 1st choice. expected. Biochem!
Biochemistry (from Greek: βίος, bios, "life" and Egyptian kēme, "earth"^[1]) is the study of the chemical processes in living organisms. It deals with the structure and function of cellular components, such as proteins, carbohydrates, lipids, nucleic acids, and other biomolecules. Chemical biology aims to answer many questions arising from biochemistry by using tools developed within chemical synthesis.

source: wiki

half expected: baby get UUM.
honestly im prepared for this. im not gonna falter to some 3 years uni course, i gonna graduate with baby both getting 1st class honour!

UPM, im coming! curi some nangka, cempedak, apa-apa la then take bus chong 8 hours til UUM give baby xP migu~ baby get dao wat baby want lo at least.. rite? got banking wor.. next time prepare see baby in duno which bank work o mi fetch go ge n_n so many people support and offer baby help got jie la parents la hubby la wei kuo la everyone o.. plus many skolmate at UUM oso wor.. so baby can feel more familiar lo.. plus hubby always here de lo..

"And I love you so and I want you to know
That I'll always be right here
And I love to sing sweet songs to you
Because you are so dear"

hubby will always be right here..

for our future, for hubby baby, for first class honour, strike! xD

lets c

2008-06-15T15:16:00.003+08:00

1.Real name - apa real name la aboh fake name ar? sekolah bin kubur? Yu Xiu Yang la
2.Nickname - Uhh.. yang? like tak ada
3.Married - proudly attached =D0
4.Male or Female - male
5.Highschool - SMK Tinggi Klang and Kwang Hua
6.College - tak ada, going UPM d
7.Short or long hair - short
8.Are you a health freak - 50%
9.Height - 177cm
10.Do you have a crush on someone - who doesnt?
11.Do you like yourself - kinda
12.Piercings - none
13.Righty or Lefty - Righty

FIRST'S

14. First surgery - never
15. First piercing(s) - tak ada..
16. First person you see in the morning - my sis when i wake her up
17. First award - in kindergarten tak tahu apa d
18. First sport you joined - Running MSSD primary 6
19. First pet - betta (or more known as siamese fighting fish)
20. First vacation - uhh forgot.. when i was a lil kid
21. First concert - maksim i think year 2005

CURRENTLY

23. Eating - not eating
24. Drinking - air(its in english)
25. I'm about to - sleep

YOUR FUTURE

26. Want kids - sure =D
27. Want to get married - yala aboh macam mana ada kids?
28. Careers in mind - entrepreneur, field: duno yet

WHICH ONE IS BETTER

29. Lips or eyes - lips
30. Hugs or kisses - both oso same eh no better both is great xD
31. Shorter or taller - Taller
32. Romantic or spontaneous - dua dua pun
33. Sensitive or loud - Sensitive
34. Trouble maker or hesitant - Hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER

35. Kissed a stranger - never
36. Drank bubbles - What is bubbles? yalo apa bubbles? soap de ar?
37. Lost glasses/contacts - no la so easy lost meh..
38. Ran away from home - aiyo halau me i oso dunwan run
39. Liked someone younger - yaya
40. Liked someone older - of course
41. Broken someone's heart - let me think.. once, tak ada d..
42. Been arrested - no la i where got so bad..
43. Cried when someone died - umm not yet
44. Liked a friend - aboh le like stranger ar?

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

45. Yourself - Sometimes
46. Miracles - ya gua
47. Heaven - not really
48. Santa clause - never.
49. Angels - oso never.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY ~*

50. Is there one person you want to be with right now - miku!
51. Do you believe in God - no and never.

baby noe jealousy O.O

2008-06-11T10:56:00.002+08:00

my baby for the first(not really first time) time i realized that she's being jealous n controlling O.O n while feeling the normal feeling of she's being almost emo, so happi xD at last haha she really feeling jealous.. then now she understand what kind of feeling i'm in when im jealous or something.. oh yay big steps for our relationship, high 5! xp

thank myself for my confident and feeling, thankyou greater power for life, love(qin qin) and UPM!

lvl 70 Priest!

2008-06-11T10:29:00.005+08:00

pictures says it all lvl70 priest at last~!

remember this? very nice eh this pic haha and our looks c our lvl =D how far we have come..

hee never thought i'll take this screenshot? xD

2008-06-07T00:18:00.001+08:00

just watch the secret for the 2nd time few days ago forgot when.. and wah.. i feel like im in UPM now with baby xD migu~ UPM break o until July 7th oh yeah we stay home pei yang men and maple o.. and then we start new sem together in UPM yay =D cant wait xD

some random updates

2008-06-04T17:02:00.003+08:00

genting! i went genting on last sat and then uhh fell sick. omg i felt nausea and very weaken all over my body n limbs. at last dinner time i went back room lie and i felt cold~ shakingly cold, ok im fever xD then took medicine, called mi baby, then sleep. on n on 2nd day genting then then finish nothing special didnt went into theme park cause sick then then go home d i think haha

my mouse! coming b4 middle of June, according to Ban Leong, the sole distributor of Razer product in msia. maybe trying to get it thru modernopc.com so i dunid travel until KL or subang to get it.

YESTerDAY! my beloved baby birthday! she seems soo happi and of course im happi for her too n_n her face show the looks of xing xing fu and well she should be with all her frens n me of course xD

btw: i changed my homepage of firefox to www.upm.edu.my haha
im obsessed with UPM and baby~

Razer Death Adder Mac edition!

2008-05-27T23:17:00.002+08:00

Death Adder mac edtion(its white) if not its blue

im seriously getting this mouse. current Krait is so freakin small wanna concentrate and control the cursor oso hard. lost alot of frags to AI with tat mouse dam.. im not gonna use another finger grip mouse for game. hopefully its still same RM185 as the original Death Adder. if not pokai liao.. my old Razer Krait gonna gao dim to Joe as his first gaming mouse =D Joe, game on!

im afraid of stranger?!

2008-05-26T16:52:00.002+08:00

for my whole life i always thought i got no problem talking with strangers/just about anyone.
but that day i went dad office saw dad's colleague and wah.. i realized that is not the first time i got that feeling. i afraid to face him/talk to him or watever you name it. phobia? wat the heck kind of phobia this is? then i realize that i scare to talk to them or what is afraid that i leave bad image/let them feel im lousy or incompetent, or even hate me. what la.. stupid phobia. have to and must find a way to get pass this kind of feeling. god i hate it.

I'm back!

2008-05-22T00:32:00.004+08:00

back to blogging yeah! haha dont think many people will read (maybe only baby) but hey, can blog for self de ma not must need someone to read right? haha

alright 1st thing, i seriously deeply really wanna study at UPM with you.. just now read dao joan yee de blog kinda scare dao why her result so good even 8th choice oso cant get.. but hmm hav to clean those thinking outta my mind and concentrate on thinking/feeling study at UPM with you n_n lai o~

2nd, i have been lazy at home for 2 months plus d i think. lazy at home usually=play game. i never really feel that its wrong or something. heck i agree to go out and learn more things but how? other than working. feeling very lazy to work job like clerk or something. its stupidly boring/repetitive and sleepy. check stock check stock see who order havent send etc.. argh. blardy boring. wan help other people earn money oso not like this ma.. at least teaching tuition is nice xD kids are noisy and funny and its kinda fun teaching them haha

3rd, oh shit. impulse buy alert! have to be determined this time. a glass mousepad for RM160? wathe hell.. ya its GLASS but wat the heck price la. can eat many secret recipe(anything la xD) with baby de eh.. STOP THE IMPULSE!

4th, ya i admit my background seems very emo. hmm hav to look for nice template and change liao even self oso beh tahan lidat de background..

next time back with more pics, tata blog(and baby)~

2007-09-12T20:39:00.000+08:00

You and I
We never had it easy baby
We've both been hurt before
(Both been hurt before)
And only time will tell us if we're gonna make it
There's no way to be sure, but

Oooooooohoo
Baby I'll take my chances with you
That's what I'm gonna do
Oooooooohoo
Baby I'll take my chances with you
You know it's true

by jesse mccartney the song i'll take my chances.
just for you my sticky mao mao chong n_n

2007-09-06T20:38:00.000+08:00

next week you're goin famine d lo.. since last time we thinking that we have to kinda seperate for 40 hours lidat.. sudd exam move forward stupid.. worry by being lil bit insecure + will really really really miss you lo.. must study hard lo before you go.. k lo i go dinner liao dunwan on liao..

2007-09-06T17:09:00.000+08:00

when in public, im always thinking someone someone is watching me talking my bad behind me, always duno what this is call. until last time read ying tong blog only realize, i actually kinda afraid of crowd. especially with people i noe in it. in public places outside no problem. but like in canteen or assembly time, im really afraid. i afraid that ppl say im loner cuz sometimes i walk alone to canteen, or standing kinda apart from my classmates in assembly, thats why afraid of being alone. but im really a loner. got no close frens, but still scare of ppl saying that. plus some people are hating me for no reasons. now i feel afraid to even get close to them. i feel like im so lost.. whenever they pass by me, i feel that im so cha.. when they are laughing talking loudy with their frens, im alone.. im afraid for these kind of stupid things. it suckx. big time.

easily insecured

2007-08-30T17:21:00.001+08:00

i duno le.. i would check out your frensters well everytime i login frenster like very insecure lidat.. kinda scare of frenster gua or wat duno..

2007-08-29T19:35:00.000+08:00

i didnt tell you.. well actuali hor i kinda scare to go the training alone.. so far plus a big event with so many people. yalo so big liao still so cha.. if go buy things in kl alone stil can la but go a big event like this alone and know no one there. really some challenge ehh.. i sometimes keep remind you also because i wan reduce dun so scare lo.. wan make myself brave a bit xD hehe

green monster=jealousy

2007-08-26T00:41:00.000+08:00

well hmm.. i got something to say. i just wanna say it la. i dunwan2keep all these things scare later next time blow out in argument more cham. theres a saying goes: never keep problems until the 2nd day, even if you have to stay up all night just to talk it out. so im writing it here. if you read it and feel not nice dunwan to talk to me bout this, dont. its ok. i just want you to noe la.

that day wednesday i feel not nice when you keep message him when in car.. luckily you reduce msging when walking la. and haiyo how should i say, feel not nice le you giving nicknames for him la like panda la sumore put in contacts it feels you 2 like really close lidat le. then sumore duno you still got call yourself panda2 ma.. i changed all the nickname of my close girl fren into their name d. plus panda these kind of nick sounded quite close le like qing lv lidat.. qing lv would call each other using nicknames de ma like piggy ah panda duno la although never c ppl use panda..

should have seen this coming

2007-08-25T20:16:00.001+08:00

i should have seen this coming. arguement over the person who make me dislike him which happen to be my girlfren's close fren. should have thought of this problem will come one day. i tried to say hi to him but to what extend? he ignores me just like that. he makes me dont like him with his lame joke now he bo song me? what the hell is going on la?!

anyone with any advice for me i really appreciate you guys..

i like the rain

2007-08-23T14:59:00.000+08:00

i like raining. cause its soothing + cool weather gives a fresh face to everything outside. hao xiang gen ni liang ge ren qu ling yu. of course not heavy rain la.. mao mao yu jiu hao liao. but now me like nose stuck half d haha sumore thinking go ling yu. raining reminds me of my special person. jiu the atmosphere ngam to think ah xD aiya shuld study pa now type blog pula. wan finish liao. ohaiyo dont knock my head har xP my lunch mi hoon soup ok ok la forgot take pic haha my life is richer with you n_n

2007-08-09T18:09:00.000+08:00

Everything I am,
And everything in me,
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be.
I'll never let you down,
Even if I could,
Give up everything,
If only for your good,

So hold me when I'm here,
Right me when I'm wrong,
Hold me when I'm scared,
You won't always be there,
So love me when I'm gone(love me when im here n_n).

lyrics lai de wanna tel you de ( ) is me type de

2007-08-09T17:52:00.000+08:00

the same old reason, girl dates guy A and loves him all so very much

Along comes guy B with a hefty pocket full of wonders

she compares guy A and B side by side

then sees that guy B is better in terms of wordly wonders

lastly she dumps the trash she didnt need lah

**
a tip for you

what designers usually say is :

"the rubbish sketches they throw in the dustbin are usually the best ones"
**

2007-08-03T23:28:00.000+08:00

was very emo this afternoon, you left me just lidat without any words, after a stupid arguement with a xiao xue sheng, which after that zhi ren cant fetch me home all of a sudden have to walk to bus stop with a stupid stormy heart.. luckily dint kena bang by car with that kind of emotion i could just cross the road without looking at all.. luckily you answered my fone which makes me much better if not i would probably end up emo-ing in tuition and not learning anything.. but after that seems like its your turn to be emo, ending the nite with current situation feel more like crying.. mind telling me wat happened? bout long xiang de thing? i oso trying to forgot d lo who else still rmbr ing this thing?

2007-07-27T15:08:00.000+08:00

wahh i duno why i worry but i really worry. not consider worry la maybe but jiu shi heart got qian gua lidat.. why you dint reply today morning? til in skol i assume your fone no battery? heart reli qian gua right now.. trying to distract myself but nothing seems to work..

2007-07-15T01:19:00.001+08:00

ya reli hard.. yi jian bu he ba.. kao liang shi kao liang.. wo ke bu zai yi ta zhen yang xiang. zhi shi tu ran fa jue yuan lai ni de kan fa shi zhe yang de.. ye shi can play de wat the why i kenot accept la.. suan le la.. shuo lai shuo qu hai shi wo bu neng jie shou those things la.. learn to accept la yao bu ran shang de hai shi wo.. chi chu de hai shi wo..

what happen to kisses are special?

2007-07-15T00:45:00.000+08:00

he just told me u give him goodnite kiss first first de last time then he say dunwan then after that he oso ok liao jiu play with you. wat the.. maybe im just too close minded. being cant accepting not lovers goodnite/bye kiss here there be it in msg or msn. i should learn to accept it la. if not, next time all the girls oso lidat i ma die of jealousy or something?

2007-07-13T14:13:00.000+08:00

well he admit last nite is him started it not you. but well he say you 2 always oso play lidat de la he say you both nothing de la cuz understand each other shi play play de. well. i noe. we bu4 shi4. zhen1 zheng4 de qing2 lv3. so. wo3. zai4 yi4. ye3 shi4. bu4 ying1 gai1 de. but really never thought you shi ne me de flirty. got goodnite kiss for him de. haiya shi wo lao tu la. bu4 neng2 jiu1 shou4 xian4 dai4 ren2 de bu2 shi4 qing2 lv3 jiu4 goodnite kiss de kan4 fa3. but why you? other girl i dun care la but haih i oso duno why i care you.

he say u wan watch harry potter so he ma wan go lo then he say he yest purposely cancel cause he say i mayb will wan bring u go watch or what.

2007-06-22T15:54:00.000+08:00

well. current status: emo. why dint tell me he fever? well i jealous. nvm its ok. dunwan go now noe got more ppl going so wan go? nvm its ok.

2007-06-10T01:35:00.000+08:00

god sh!t dam pain la my stomach..

2007-05-31T00:27:00.000+08:00

hmm.. sudd reli disturbed when i thought someone went clubbing or something. pyramid at this time? what place could it be? turns out to be rainforest bistro but dun reli noe what kind of place is that. but bistro hmm noe gua.. called her, kinda there lo. she not taking alcohol, but thats not the point. wat happen la god why again i feel these kind of feelings. just like last time hui shan tell me she in club wat the f? this feeling kills me.. couldnt concentrate do anything whole heart like flying around lidat watch movie oso sudd not in the story anymore, just wanna call her talk to her. wat is that la? honestly i dun like girls who are closer to me go that kind of place, but well its not like she is my gf or something? why tat crazy feelings so disturbingly strong its gonna cost me my studies hell shit. scorpio sux.

2007-05-23T20:29:00.001+08:00

holy red bean soup with orange peel sucks.. 2 days left til intense studying. same old no feeling de me. emotionless for this instant. and holy my addiction to music is growing. i need louder music now xD sometimes la zz

IM SORRY

2007-05-20T22:28:00.000+08:00

i shouldnt had told u i like you. i am SORRY.

girl's nature?

2007-05-20T19:38:00.000+08:00

its girls nature to keep everything to herself and dont say anything? then how does a couple be stay together and stay true to each other? if the girl party doesnt want to say anything how she feels bout something what she thinks bout a decision or what? then ma cham lo? all breakups oso cause the girl dunwan say anything even jealous oso dunwan say then ma die?

i just wanna make sure you're ok la. i shouldnt tell u if i noe it would end up lidat. you oso dun like me why should it matters le? or you like me d? what la u never say or even hint how m i suppose to noe? actuali i lost the feelings for sometime d. i duno why jiu shi just faded. now no feelings on anyone, k? believe me please. i never lied to u rite? i wont lie to you la i promised u b4. and the form 3 time thing i dun care la, seriously. i dont mind. god.. i hope i dint hurt dao u. shit im like a jerk la..

holy im flower?

2007-05-20T13:37:00.000+08:00

i sudd realize alot and i mean ALOT of people say that im flower hearted? wtF? they dont even understand me and there goes they fluffy mouth of xiuyang ar? xiuyang very flower de, careful ah. xiuyang very flower de he got alot of ex gf la blabla.. what the? beh tahan people de mouth la please. since when i flower? gimme a solid proof then i will admit i flower, if not, STFU, please.

2007-05-17T17:18:00.000+08:00

i really should feel bad bout doin that last tuesday. shit.. im thinking like someone without dignity already. holy shit. at last gila exam is over, also means that my crazy results gonna force me to get into intense study schedule. OW is here wOOt.. i noe you are reading this. last nite de thing, will tell you de la k? when time is right. dun let it flood your mind d lo. especially in exam k? and haha my grape-ly big pimple now left small patch of nice pretty new pink skin haha no more chao ta love bite xD

2007-05-16T20:30:00.000+08:00

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

All you wanted was somebody who cares
If you need me you know I'll be there

nice song: all you wanted by michelle branch

2007-05-13T02:13:00.000+08:00

holeyy its 2.15 already monday biochem shitt never study anything and havent sleep sumore shitt.. haha u bought fone deco for me pula(watever its called) pengsan sure looks like a girl's fone if i put luckily ur sis took it xD she never noe its for me right? boring day. and walau soo li ah sleep lo so late d sumore watching pirates pula.. and you ah yala you, again sleeping without saying? zzz lost count how many nights d lo.. aiya empty day.. pcgamer oso like not much reviews for nice games. stupid pc nova so 7 weeks 5 days liao my graphic card still no news(wtf?)? mana sudah pergi saya punya galaxy 6600 zzz should've been studying now but well.. holey there goes my bio and chem.. and wow saw few leng luis in tesco just now hoho xD and wOOt tree hill is BACK! fu yoh every girl is pregnant sumore xD and whooa my room got new air cond d haha for the stupid crazy weather recently. you memang stubborn lo wat oso say half aboh jiu dunwan tell lidat zz noe i reli curious de ma zz but nyway slip tight and study well lo =D

2007-05-09T22:29:00.000+08:00

zz tonight is wed nite=? nite market in chi liung sumore tell me bout it beh tahan crazy phobia..
then getting emo d zz ohgod maths on friday holy cow i dun even noe wat is cosinus?
and whoa connetto royale triple choc rockx! =D thought i heard u say u dunwan? hehe next time lo heard sis say the tiramissu oso nice, should've steal it from her to taste xia.. and wah max love me xD

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

woww i love these lyrics although it doesnt means anything to me now =D

2007-05-09T01:25:00.000+08:00

holey.. im still phobia of frenster, nite market, KH, everything bout KH, holy even going back to KH.. thought m over with you d mana tahu after effect still strong. hmm.. life have to go on right? what the hell is life anyway? staying alive, studying for exams? fu yo sudd feel outta speech. i felt strange, why on that nite everytime i tried to hold ur hand you keep avoid it, but doesnt avoid my kiss? hmm..

2007-05-07T19:27:00.000+08:00

woww and wow, again. i thought about you whole day you know? haha even when exam will sudd think dao yi xia, kick it outta mind then will come in again yi xia haha then tuition time oso will think dao xia xia zz omg. never thought you leave such a deep mark in my heart girl haha congrats =D alright this is stupid xD hmm.. k la its just thinking of normal fren ma nothing special de la. zhi shi duno y will think dao. alright im off.

2007-05-05T18:59:00.000+08:00

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

OMGOD

2007-05-05T15:12:00.000+08:00

OMG im again phobia of frenster waht teh fkcu? do i have to be phobia of it everytime there's thing bout her? im getting crazy. is our personality so damm contradicting or what? alright you were tickling me and well i just dont like it cause we are not that close so alright nvm then, i wanted to act cold to you cause dont like you keep playing me its not like we're close fren or something but well then in msg you were like wtf? after tat incident each and EVERYTIME i msg you i would feel somekind of negative feelings of somekind of hurt + sad + unknown bad feelings la arghh i feel like ..... i duno what the feeling its just bad and getting on my mind whole day argh WTF is happening to me? bcuz of you im feeling like this or? arghh i feeel relli relli distracted and goddam my major exam is on monday.. last time i asked you to stay out of my life its becuz of this feeling. its crazily disturbing and and actuali this feeling is HAUNTING my heart. i dont hate you nor dislike you. im over with our things. but its just.. honestly i got no idea why izit like this. maybe we are born at 2 edge of the personality, we can never mix nor even talk without one party feeling hurt or what. i duno la. god what hell of a heart i got.. ya you wun read this and hope you will never do. i dont want this feelings again its destroying my attention to any and everything. i just pray that we are out of each other's life for good.

2007-05-04T23:51:00.000+08:00

i've been searching for myself? still searching also le.. so long d zz everyday oso like zombie lidat live like tak ada feeling. living a life without feelings? mayb cause too monotonous d? or bcuz there arent any interesting things in life? ZOMBIE ZZ sien. god exam next monday and im here shit.. my midterm is gonna die. even eyesight now is dropping wtf la.. fed up with my lazy attitude.

and shit i think i did something reli bad today. i crossed the line sh!t feel like guilty like did something wrong lidat zz

so what the hell is life?

"It's all a game of this or that
Now this is there
that out of all the girls worse for wear
And you're someone
Who knows someone who knows someone
I once knew
And I just want to be a part of this

The road outside my house
Is paved with good intentions
Hire a construction crew
Cause it's hell on the engine
And you are the dreamer
And we are the dream.
I could write it better than you ever felt it.

So hum hallelujah,
Just off the key of reason
I thought I loved you
It was just how you looked in the light.
Our teenage vow in a parking lot
Till tonight do us part
I've seen the blues
And I've swallowed them too."

Hum Hallelujah[Fall Out Boy]

2007-05-02T03:08:00.000+08:00

hey no sorry needed la why are you apologizing pula.. its ok la im ok =D alright this is crazy its 3.25 and sleepy and not sleeping xD hmm duno why m wasting time here zz gotta slip soon.

alright its the last nite

2007-04-30T21:48:00.000+08:00

wow dam tired. looong day sleepy now flu + sneeze whole day wat the?
tomoro? duno la zz.. never thought stupid telco thing can be prob of keeping in contact with you. sigh.. nothing is without obstacles huh? haha this is stupid thing.. i duno la.. reli tired right now am not thinking straight. thinking its not like you're gonna like me rite? maybe i'll juz hold myself back? since we're not gonna contact alot after tonight. lolx i duno what im thinking. slip better la zz you sleeping d gua.. happi cuz saw you today. hee you darker d le.. cuz of today sports? dun burn so much d lo

"all of the things that I want to say
just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping inwards
you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you"

just for you lyn.
You and Me [Lifehouse]

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2007-04-28T18:28:00.000+08:00

you wanted to know me? never thought got people wanted to know me xD the bonus part is: its you haha honestly i really happy la when you told me that.

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

hanging by the moment [lifehouse]

2007-04-27T22:19:00.000+08:00

to hell with jealousy.. am i born with jealousy or what? must i jealous everything ar? wtf la..

2007-04-26T21:25:00.001+08:00

guys are the one touching girls heart, but any girls thought of touching a guys heart? hmm.. suddenly realize nobody ever touches my heart other than my family and shan zhu zzz.. mayb is lidat de lo.. not even my girlfren.. hmm, its always been i touching my gf's heart nia zz